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Lights out.

Thu Oct 15, 2009, 3:50 PM
So he's gone. Totally gone. It wasn't pretty and he's gone for good and I'm sick and sad and I can't believe it. I'm surprised and not at the same time, and it's like a part of my brain just had the lights turned off and they won't ever come back on again. I'm not sure how I should feel. I'm not sure if I should be stoic and glad he's not suffering, or if I should be miserable and wail like I'm three years old again and he's still my hero. I don't want him back. No. I'm just sorry.

  • Mood: Tearful

Sum-uppage, Summer.

Sun Aug 2, 2009, 3:32 PM
  • Mood: Optimism
  • Listening to: Next to Normal Soundtrack (omgLight)
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So hello there, fellow deviants! :) I've been having a totally super summer thus far, and I hope I've got another whole month left to go. Here are some random anecdotes and observations that I hope will give you all some idea of where I am life-wise. Or at least in my progress therapy-wise.

So, first things first, I've recently returned home after a week-long vacation at the guesthouse. It's a fantastic thing being up there. It's like camping with a really, really cool tent. Kitchen, real beds, plumbing, etc. And less bugs! Well, okay, USUALLY it means less bugs, but this year I was extra tasty so I can't count that as a perk. But yeah, the plumbing is from the lake... or the well, I'm not sure, actually, but basically it amounts to: Anything liquid that might go into your body has to come from a bottle. So brushing teeth, washing dishes, ice cubes = all with bottled water. Not so bad, but if any of you have been forced (forced!) to keep toothpaste in your mouth for 7+ minutes then you'll know what I'm talking about when I say I'm glad to be home.

I honestly didn't take out the camera too much whilst we were... housecamping. Mostly I was reading indoors, since it rained a bunch. I took some on the ride there, but until I can decide whether or not to photoshop a big powerwire thing out of one or not, I'm not posting those. On the last day, and I mean that literally (we were packed and on the way home) we stopped by the beach. It wasn't particularly cold or anything, but the wind was crazy. It was the kind of strong wind that made you feel like you could be picked up and blown away. It's not particularly wonderful on its own, but it inspired this crazy, roller-coaster laughing from me which I actually enjoyed. I got some nice shots there as well - it was really beautiful.



Those are three shots of about eight I suppose. I'm not going to submit them all at once to cut message-spam. Or I'm lazy. You can make up your own mind on that one.

Anyway! Moving right along, there's some other stuff I'd like to address, and will begin doing so right now.

First of all, the August 8th, I believe, is another Toronto devmeet. It's one of the first all-ages meets I've seen, so I'm definitely considering going. Distillery district scares the ghoulish activity right out of me, though, so I'm not sure I'll make it. I might be sick that day. I might not have anyone to go with. We shall see.
Anyone planning on being there? Let me know! :)

Next, the opportunity has been presented to me to attend the TOorontoFC v. DC United game later in August, and I could not be more psyched to maybe get the chance go. 4srs. I'm not sure if anyone knows this about me, but I'm a big TFC fan, and although I'd have preferred to see them against Columbus, I'm not complaining. DC is great, but not too great, so I won't feel like the outcome of the game will be ruined for me before it starts. Anyway, yeah, I'm little-girl giddy about this. Any MLS fans reading this, perchance?
ETA: So that didn't pan out. But that's alright! It gives me wiggle room to purchase fun crazyfan merchandise to wear at future games.

So yeah. Also, I've bought the Next to Normal Soundtrack and it is awesome. Seriously, some OBCR musical soundtracks are like... kind of bad, since the magical shindiggery that is so heavy in the live performances is kind of lost in an audio track. This is not the case with NtN and I highly recommend it to anyone with ears. Ooh, so happy. :3

Oookay, I'm winding this down now, don't worry. (I'll probably have a bunch of ETAs here since I've forgotten a bunch of crap, I'm sure. I apologize for that now.) The last thing I want to mention is I'm turning eighteen in two months. ALMOST TO THE DAY. I'm excited and terrified, but not really because I have big-girl plans. I don't have university lined up, or a job, or anything like that. I'm scared of the plans I feel I should have made, if that makes sense. I feel kind of irresponsible? I'm not sure. I'm not jealous of people I know who are off to school or work this coming year. I'm actually feeling lucky because I can take time away from that kind of world and figure myself out. I just think there's some kind of expectation for me to grow up, and I've certainly got no plans to do that any time soon. ... Eh. Just a weird paradoxical life-related feeling, I guess.

Anyway, chin up, boobs out, etc. I'm feeling good! AND YOU ALL SHOULD BE TOO.
And if you're not, go get yourself a delicious frozen treat and email me the calories. (I'm hoping to establish a rebate system for that. I'll get back to you when it's live.)


:heart: Thanks guys.


PS: If you read all of that... well. Um. I didn't really have a prize prepared... so, that was kind of a waste of your time. Sorry. D:

Ookay. That was weird: The Toronto meet reviewed.

Sat Jun 27, 2009, 12:55 PM
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So I went to the Toronto meet on the dA World Tour stop. I didn't stay forever, because my cousin had to be home early and I was basically her ride. Anywayyyy, uhh... I stayed for about two hours? Enough for a crapload of group photos and I'm sure even more moments wherein I looked incredibly lame. Here are some of my observations of the time I spent at the event:

We got there on time. Yayyy. We stood around for a while, looking for someone with name tags. Finally, we found and got some. Then we stood around talking... to each other. My cousin isn't on dA, I brought her in case I was accosted or... I don't know, mostly moral support. Yeah, so I found the event awfully cliquey and not... not that friendly? I mean, everyone was nice enough, but nobody was like... making an effort to talk to people who were clearly by themselves. And the few people I tried talking to just kind of ran away like I was RUINING THEIR DAY BY SAYING HELLO OMG. Seriously, I said hi to people walking by on more than five separate occasions and every single time I got a weak "hi" back and they would just walk away with this look on their face like I just toppled their Jenga tower.

After a while at the top of the hill where everyone was meeting we kind of started moving down to the more open park-y area. Listened to $spyed talk for a while, and then some other idiots making noise and being stupid while he was trying to say stuff. Aaaaand then... uhm. There was an annoying kid trying to spray everyone with a sprinkler, which I wouldn't have minded since it was so hot... but the shrieks of girls (and some boys) was enough to make me wish he'd stop. From there we split into groups regarding our style of art. Digital art... traditional... I don't know, I couldn't hear anything after he said "photography group, follow this guy" and then I just decided that applied to me well enough and followed him! In the group we stood around... introduced ourselves, and then sat down to talk about the site with $Moonbeam13. It was nice, but that portion was for the site. People who spend loads of time here and browse and actually take the whole thing seriously.

I am not one of those people.

Anyway, that's about the point where I left.
I got in the car at about 4:00pm to drive home.
I had arrived at 2:06pm.
Two hours was not enough to make it worthwhile for me.
But then again, I didn't stick it out until the very end, so perhaps it got much better as the day went on.

So, my overall opinion:
-Not really the place for networking. Nobody introduced themselves to me. Nobody let me introduce myself to them. It's definitely a place to go WITH or TO MEET WITH someone you already know/talk to from the site. The people there already have their groups and it's not likely they'll let you into them.
-If you don't have much time to spend there, don't expect it to be fabulous. I'm not at all clear on what happened once I left, but it was fairly unexciting for the time I was actually there.
- If you're a fan of the site and spend a lot of time here, definitely go to one of these. There's so much for you to learn about and people you can suggest things to.
- Easily amused? Loud? DEFINITELY GO TO A MEET WOOOO OMG LOLOLOL WOO.

Anyway. Yeah. The end. That's my assessment.
I'll definitely go to another one of these in the future, but not before I "haz buddeh" to meet up with.

... I also have just found pictures of me from the event.
I look awful.
... And will most likely be joining a gym in the near future.
Ew.

  • Mood: Neglect
  • Listening to: Fan noises... shshhhhhhwooommm.
  • Watching: My dignity slip away.

Watch this get absolutely no response.

Thu Jun 25, 2009, 3:11 PM
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So that DevMeet is tomorrow! Any Toronto-dwellers going? :) I think I might, but I'm absolutely petrified.

I think it might be different if I had already known somebody from online who I'd be meeting up with there. But now it's like... yeah. It's pretty scary, not knowing anyone. It's like the first day of school, except I'll probably not ever see these people again. So, while that may seem like a perk at first glance, I also am fairly certain that translates pretty directly to: ONE CHANCE FOR A FIRST IMPRESSION MAKE THEM LIKE YOU OR DIE.

If you replace "die" with... "live forever knowing there are random people across the country who may dislike you or have untoward opinions of you" then that's pretty accurate.

Who wants to take votes on whether I'll pee myself or vomit?
I vote vomit, personally... but then I've been wrong before.

  • Mood: Nervous
  • Listening to: My Love Is Freeing - Sam Roberts

It really should prompt you for a title...

Thu Feb 26, 2009, 10:27 AM
  • Mood: Welcoming
  • Listening to: Girls Go Shopping - Enchanted Soundtrack
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So. I feel I should probably start with the obligatory apology for not having submitted anything at all recently. I must admit, I've felt a tad disillusioned with this site and its members, especially as of late. Certain people with bad attitudes and even worse vocabularies, who overreact and can't shut up and get a clue. This isn't a site to fight on, doing some sort of verbally violent man-dance to earn your boyparts. This is a place to learn and be better and by all means make some friends. Oh, and that pesky "art" thing.

Idiots are idiots.
Anywayyy...

I'm not here to be all meanieface. My pimpface is much more pleasant. And sparkly.
Now, as I've said before, if "OC Tournament" makes you giggle until you cry and break wind, YOU MUST SEE BRC NOW. I have the stampthing, and I'll link you.

News article: [link]
How to join: [link]
BRC intro/info (Flash): [link]

Now, the original deadline was the 25th, which you must already know was yesterday. It has been extended, and then re-extended because there weren't enough auditions submitted. I URGE YOU ALL TO TAKE A LOOK. Even a casual glance. It's a beautiful tournament and it would be even more so if we could get the roster of members it deserves.
Just consider your options.
If you've got a new character you want to build up, get to know a bit better, this could be a good place to start. Or, if you have an old, dusty character who is probably bitter and angry with you because you haven't paid him any attention lately, this may be a good way to make things up to him. Or her. Or yourself.

So. Give it a shot. I'm on as a judge. I want to see people participating. JOURNALSPAM TIEM. Oh yeah.

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